Two Peas in a Pod- "My Best Friend and Me"

I am a girl who has amazing people in my life by the grace of the Almighty. I find myself one of the luckiest people as I got two best friends like gems in my life. 

Today I want to share some of my precious periods spent with one of them whose name is 'Jannatol Fardous Tasnim'. 

Let me start with the beginning of our friendship. We got to know each other at the time of Covid, the days of our college life. We started to talk as college mates and spent a lot of time in online gossip together staying at home. Gradually our bond becomes stronger and stronger. We have a ton of memories together. 

I gave her the nickname 'Tasi' and she loves when someone calls her by this name. I still remember, a person for the first time called her 'Tasi' in front of me and she was smiling and blushing like a pink rose. 

The time after our public university admission test was quite frustrating for us. But we did not let ourselves feel lonely at that time. We talked, we laughed, we cried and visited so many places together at that time. The teachers of our exam halls always get to know how close we are even though they do not know us. People around us always use to say, you guys are so amazing! Yes, we are. She is more than a best friend to me. She is my sister whom I find every sad or lousy time of mine, with whom I can share all of my feelings without even thinking about being judged. 

I always think about the time of August, 2022. It was quite a tough time for me. She did not let me be alone for a single day! If she did not be with me in that tough phase, that might have been worst for me. Therefore, the day I told her, I might be moving to another country, she burst out crying within seconds. The moment was so heart-wrenching for me.

Now come to the part when we decided to admit to the same university and same department in Novmber, 2022. We gave our admission test and were selected for it. Yes, we had been chosen to be together again for 4 more years at the 'School of Pharmacy' of Brac University. 

It was the 25th of January,2023 when we started our new journey together once again as best friends in our new university life. We used to go to the university, did a lot of fun and came back to our home together. Everyone used to ask us, 'Do you guys know each other from before?' We used to reply, 'Yes, we are besties'. Our bond was so strong that nobody could ever break it. 

Gradually we two made new friends of us and we got close to some of them. Though she has always been my first priority among all of my friends, I realized her priorities were changing for her own reasons. I accept that change. Generally, I cannot share all of my feelings with everyone, but I could share that with her. I shared my weird feelings with her. She got realized and apologized for some of her unintentional things. We sorted out everything. But then things did not work out well. We stopped to come back together from university to home. We started to have miscommunications and misunderstandings. The things she needed from me, someone else came to ask me which make me feel very sad. I tried to ignore all of those things. Day by day, I perceived many unthinkable situations that were beyond my imagination. The day I last talked to her, she broke down my trust and I was done.

I guess I again should have talked to her openly about those things, but I could not. I also know that I hurt her sometimes when I lost control of those things. I had and I have a lot of things to share with her. Everyone asks me, what happened between us, but I have no answer in reply. I have no idea that our friendship would be the same again or not. She was my treasure trove and I miss her really very much. 

I love my 'Tasi' to the moon and back always and forever.